Checking in with the Lord

I am a romantic. I love the involvement life has. I love the fun, the way things work. But right now some of it is painful. I have a nearly 2 year old grandson who has been a great part of my life. His father, is well, non-existent. I would love to tell him how much he has missed. I would love him to plug in. On the other hand I am probably the only dad this boy has ever known. And my wife, she has been experiencing tremendous pain from an injury. The meds they give her do not create a peaceful environment. They cause mood changes and mood swings. Life changes from one moment to the next. That which was "okay" yesterday is not a problem. All one can do sometimes is walk away and pray. Only yesterday I took her to the hospital for more tests and evaluations. Some of it is created by stress, some by her job, some by posture because of her job. Regardless, pain is pain.

There is a lot going on. Here I am. 53. I own a paper with a partner who went through a divorce and bailed. I have taken on burdens and can't seem to make the corner. I have been a full time minister who is in transition from pastorate to prophetic. I am helping another gentleman with his business because he has a great product and a great work ethic. Another friend came out with a book and I feel sure that I am to help him. Another friend has asked me to be his campaign manager in his run for the House Of Representatives. I feel the Lord calling me to the "Family Altar project." And I spend a lot of time with God trying to figure out things. I tried to give away a newspaper I ad to a friend, but he is now in sin mode. Add three lovely grandchildren and five of our own children and life fills up fast.

So, God? What is the plan for today?